Day 2 @ the GYM!!!

HOLY CRAP!!!!!! I SMELL AWFUL!!!! Then again, my kitchen garbage smells nasty too and I don't hold it against it. It's just the nature of a garbage can. So should I hold it against me? Probably not. Apparently, people smell bad when they exercise. Who knew? Oh gosh! Did I really just compare myself to a garbage can? Yes, yes I did.

So today at the gym I talked to and set up and appointment with a personal trainer. Cool, huh?! It's almost like I' a celebrity. But, as it turns out, I have to work at 8am the day I set it up at 7:30, so I had to cancel. But, I'm determined to have a trainer of the opposite gender who can make me a hottie. I'm already "cute" and I have a "pretty face" which really means someone's just trying to be nice. Not that there's anything wrong with nice. Nice is nice. Being a hottie is better. Here's my theory about a personal trainer who's a dude: He's going to know what attractive looks like because that's what he'd be attracted to. Therefore, if I'm attractive in his eyes, I'll be attractive to other guys as well. But, don't get me wrong, being attractive is not the main reason I'm losing all this weight. I'm losing it to be healthy and to boost my self-esteem. I love that I'm blunt with myself. I know I'm fat. There's no point in trying to disguise it. BUT, I don't always have to be this way. I can and will change it. I love that I'm doing this. As an added bonus, I think my skin is clearing up as well.

I think eating crap all the time was taking a toll on me. Now, fast food make me feel like poop. SO, in order to avoid poopiness, I'm not eating fast food EVER AGAIN! It is in no way shape or form good for me. So, it it's not good for me, I don't eat it. I've finally adopted the point of view in which the things of the future are so much more important than what I wan here and now. That goes for more things than just losing weight. My spiritual self is much happier when I take care f its home, my body. Plus, when I do the right thins, I'm much happier. Taking time out to focus on Scripture Study, personal prayer and leading a life guided by God is incredibly invigorating. Plus, even if no one else but God is proud of me, He always will be . He knows being healthy is important too.

So, this is purely psychological, but I don't care. First off, the smaller you cut your apple slices, the more food your body thinks its getting. Why not trick myself out? Sounds like a plan to me. Secondly, me writing all this stuff down makes me completely accountable. Who's gonna want to read about someone who fails That's right! NOBODY! But a fat girl gone skinny? That's good stuff. Here's where you come in: You reading this stuff is helping me reach my goals. Just the fact that I know this is going to be read by someone, somewhere means I have to do well. That's all there is to it.